A really unproductive day!

Recently, I've been comparing myself with other people alot. Especially a few guys in particular.. gosh.. Comparing with them.. i feel myself being so useless.. i've lost the confidence and had blinded myself of what is my strong points.. i feel like i'm just an average guy with nothing special.. i ain't buff..i ain't athletic..i ain't a handyman.. i really feel like i ain't anything.. i know there is something.. but i just don't see it anymore! Sometimes i just wanna know.. what is it in me that shines out when people sees me? That is just one tornado in my mind..

The Second goes like this.. Do you ever wonder.. if people really care bout you or just using you as a tool.. building a relationship just to have someone to ask for help when time comes.. so what am i suppose to think.. if i'm being used.. am i suppose to be gracious and just let help them? or should i just go berserk and walk off? Feeling like a dummy.. over and over again.. thinking that things will eventually turn out good and benefiting for me.. am i fooling myself or is it a way to pull things through.. i really don't know what is going on!

Not all is bad lah.. lately i got myself a 'Mini Teddy-Bear or OWL' to chat with me at night.. and listen to me complain bout everything in the world! hahahaha! Ze Owl is waiting for ze post! so to make ze owl happy.. i shall include ze owl in ze post! =X been sleeping really late lately.. bad for health! must go back to gooody boy lifestyle!

I'm outta here.. bounce! Night!