Opium!

I don’t know where I’m at

I’m standing at the back

And I’m tired of waiting

Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky

I’m stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go

Cause then I'd never know

What I could be missing

But I’m missing way too much

So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky

I’m stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Oh I am going down, down, down

Can’t find another way around

And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky

I’m stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky

I’m stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down

I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?

Oh it’s coming down, down, down.

This song is the song that relates to me completely.. that is why i totally LESS THAN THREE this song! :D Tho i may not feel that much pain compared to the music anymore.. but still i am scarred.. this scar reminds me that the pain is real.. i used to thought i can do this.. i can do that..i can do everything by my own hands to make things word.. but i think i just can't! A relationship really need both sides.. being together means being a team.. and i failed to do that.. i always saw myself as the one that must finish everything on my own.. But now its all too late to be said.. just learn from my own mistakes.. lost something.. gain something in life..

Tonight i shared my story with a midnight stalker.. she was my hometown friend.. i guess no one sees me with problems.. she was also shocked that i had such problems.. telling her my story brought myself to tears as i linger on the sweet memories that i had and is something i hold really really dearly to my heart tho it may not be all good.. good or bad.. i'll take it all cause i truly treasure these memories! But i ain't gonna stop here and sulk till time passes me by.. once fallen.. gotta stand by again and walk again.. i'm not afraid to try again! God gave me this life.. He didn made it a bed a roses for me.. through hurts,sorrows,pain, and disappointment.. i learn! So many points to point out.. but i need to hit the hay! 3.30 and i'm still here.. got class tomoro! and got test on Wednesday!! @@ Professional Conduct sucks.. so many things to read.. all nonsensical! But i LOVE it~ i HAVE to love it.. i MUST love it.. cannot fail lahhhhh~~ ROAR!!

Never blame a day in ur life.
Good days give u happiness.
Bad days give u experience.
Both are essential in life!
All are Gods blessings!

~Channin's Outta Here~