It is gonna be a-okay says people.. but it just ain't.. i'm beaten down.. i'm losing the battle.. i'm losing it again.. i'm breaking down.. i'm tired.. but can anyone understand how tired am i? People always see me as a carefree guy that has no problem with friends.. but that IS my biggest problem.. i'm tired of trying to please people.. trying to find a conversation for every conversation.. i'm tired.. my handphone has been out of credit for a few days.. and since then my phone has be quiet.. i'm just starting to think and wonder.. do anyone really care? and is my efforts trying to keep the strings for friendship close to me just a waste of time? gimme a break.. i try to hard to build a super good social life.. but i think it just keep failing.. even this CNY.. i was the one who destroyed the party.. of all people.. the least expected one for i was the crazier one.. not anymore.. i guess i just ain't fun.. i just am an annoyance to people.. always being left behind since young had made me treasure friendship.. but at the same time.. making me numb and cheating myself that its alright.. well the truth is.. its not.. don't i deserve a lil recognition and attention sometimes.. i'm not a teddy bear.. i'm not a ball.. i'm really tired.. i'm losing my battle to my happiness.. i dunno what is it in me that is lacking.. but i really do care for you.. u are always there in my mind no matter where and when.. please tell me that u know and u feel the same.. pretty please.. i need you.. i am dying inside out each time i see you with him.. take care girl..
~Channin's Outta Here~
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