Within ME!

For some time now.. i've been facing a huge confusion and a really hard time struggling to fight against my emotions.. well.. have come to this point where nothing else matters.. i tried hiding my emotions by trying to be happy and occupying my time with all the crap in the world.. but it was just temporary.. when i heard the specific word.. i just broke down.. the mask that i was wearing, scattered into million bits.. revealing the truth to me once again.. making me think.. what am i to do again.. and i just make the decision to isolate myself from the world and community again.. well this is unhealthy.. but i have no control over it.. i can't face entertaining some sad people coz i'm not even stable myself.. this world has ugly truth.. but there is nothing u can do bout it.. facing it is the only way.. so that is what i'm gonna do!

Well..Some feelings are just to hard to put into words.. well i surely know one thing.. Time will pass so will the feelings.. So.. dun hide or try to overcome the emotions by hiding it.. or trying to forget it.. it would never happen..facing the problem and deal with it.. that's something i'm trying to learn myself.. but i know its the way to go.. so let's march on to the battlefield and settle it! No matter of what the outcome is.. i have to let it go.. and move on with life.. i won't let anything hold me down from being myself and being happy.. no way!

Before i end this post.. i really need to thank a really really good fren of mine.. She is there for me.. she understands me.. i really look up to her.. she is just a fantastic,superb, awesome girl.. i dunno how to say this and all.. but i'm really grateful to have her as my friend.. let all the nasty past.. be forgotten.. and let this be a new beginning of this beautiful friendship! F Y I.. she is Kristie Cheng Tse En~! =D Words of wisdom, comfort, love, support, all the good things u have done for me.. i'll remember it all the while! Thank You God for this friend of mine!