Confusion Ended.. Here Comes The Pain!

Everytime

Lately I'm not who I used to be
Someone's come and taken me
Where I don't wanna go
If I knew exactly what i have to do
In order to be there for you
When you are feeling low

And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left

Everytime I kiss I feel your lips
and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realise that
Everytime I hold your hands in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever
find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away

Save me, I've fallen from my
destiny
You and I were meant to be
I've thrown it all away
Now you're gone
It's time for me to carry on
But baby I just can't go on
Without you by my side

And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left

Everytime I kiss I feel your lips
and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realise that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever
find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away

We can survive it
All the pain we feel inside
You relied on me and now I've let you
down
Now, I promise you forever
I will be the best I can
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left

Everytime I kiss I feel your lips
and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realise that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever
find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away

Everytime I kiss I feel your lips
and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realise that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever
find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away

Evidence!

Re U~

Bieber Blast! HarH! =P well.. A great weekend just flew by~ Had a small ReU wif my beloved Js Peeps! Things just couldn't get any better.. hahaha! really had a wonderful and precious moment there.. =D

Okay okayy.. this is the start of the long weekend.. hehe.. Packed up my stuff.. and move my way towards the long journey to Taman Jaya where James will picked me up~ ON THE WAY! i sensed something.. hahaha.. i saw Chien Li and Enwei! hahaha! Cool stuff~ and i'm somehow their Savior in the LRT transiting part.. hahaha! Well.. bla bla bla.. bullied chien li.. bla bla bla.. reach station.. saw james.. folo james..picked oonie and mei-yan.. then went back to fetch FERN! hahaha! Went to Austin's place.. thank you austin! hahaha! well.. things started right after.. becoz the PARTY DON'T START TILL I WALKED IN~!! muahahaha! well.. literally is.. becoz i have to start and set barbieeeQ fire.. well.. OH OH!! there were no firestarters..well.. there was some 'cool' charcoals.. hahaha! i think it was bought at the TrickShop.. becoz the charcoal will pop and burst! hahaha! Well.. that makes the BBQ da 'BOMB' ! well.. everything when well after that! hahah! just enjoyed our time of fellowship and catching up.. =D then after some tummy torturing! then clean up starts.. bla bla bla~ Broke many stuff.. oh oh! and the charcoal pit made a HOLE in austin's porch.. SORRY AUSTIN!! :( hehee! oh.. nite time can't sleep.. something was really bugging me.. making me feel so so stressed.. the last time i felt so stressed was when i had to decide wat to eat for dinner~ hahaha! =P

The very next morning! everyone woke up.. and got ready and went breakfast! well.. feeling hungry.. Ate those roadside nasi lemak.. 1 mouth of the rendang.. i was flying.. all my senses went haywire.. due to superb rendang~ muahahah!! then we are suppose to go hiking and gold mining.. aish.. but due to the Blazing heat and laziness to move.. all hang out at the house waiting for the other gang to finish their meeting so we can go to the waterfall.. hehehe.. cool stuff.. we did a lot of singing.. Cover of some songs.. some acting.. and some really funny and heart busting game.. hahaha! =) oh there is a mental game.. well.. i just suck at that.. hahah! after a while.. everyone was tired.. and become quiet.. enwei slept.. and other people just went disappear.. haha! Well.. SOON! james and gang came back from meeting.. everyone was excited and changed and we are on our way to the WATERFALL~ =) its a long long climb up.. and saw a couple that was.. doin SOMETHING in the water.. ahh~ well.. we mind our own business and played in the freezing water which ROCKS!! WOOOHOOOO!! =) had a great time there! had a walked down from the waterfall which makes me regret something.. aish.. but still cool stuff~ muahaha! Went to William's tat nite for dinner.. fuyoh! mamak atmosphere but the food exp like super! BUT the food was totally awesome! that nite.. watched Blind Side.. that rocks! SERIOUSLY PLEASE WATCH THE MOVIE! hahaha! really really nice.. except my butt pain due to sitting on the floor for too long part..hahaha.. then talk talk.. sleep..

SUNDAY! zeng zeng zeng~ i was overdressed.. crap! hahaha! visited EMC again~ hahaha! its good to see some old faces.. hahaha! went 1U after that.. walked alot.. talked alot.. eat quite a lot as well.. went to a fancy place.. that i never been b4.. cool place tho.. hahaha! bla bla bla~ back at home.. oh oh oh! SCREENING through old old js pics and video from james' batch.. and my batch.. uncle bert.. u really have changed and u've done alot ! LOVE YOU! hahaha! gay~ well.. we all have a great laughing when we saw shawn dancing.. hahaha! totally hilarious man..

Every paragraph is getting shorter.. i'm getting so so so lazy to type d.. hahaha! have to recall somemore.. well.. send shaun off to buy ticket.. went Sunway Pyramid! Went archery 1st.. COOL! hahaha! its been so long since i've played archery.. =)then went for BELGIUM fries~ hahaha.. then ice-skating.. Good Thing i roller-blade last time.. 1st time skating.. i'm there flying around d..hahaha! then went bowling.. aish.. lost to sheepZ by 5 pins.. 105 - 109 ! aiyahh~ bla bla bla..mcD trouble.. the cashier is sooo noob.. she messed up my orders.. and soon see her changed to frying fries and doing refills! hahaha! noob! muahahaha ! back home.. chat chat chat.. hormones went out of order.. and start playing wif austin's gym contraption..hahaha! so fun! and make me so energized~ talk talk talk till 3.. then sleep..

Rise and shine again.. get ready.. uncle bert came.. fetch me go yamcha.. and we had a TALK.. scarily he makes me scare.. hahaha.. really maybe becoz i can't predict him.. hahaha! talk talk talk.. gave me some idea of wat to do d.. hahaha! came back hostel.. walk walk walk.. put back.. sleep.. and WALAH!! nothing d.. hahaha! back to usual days.. FINALLY! CHAOZ!! pictures coming soon~

Step of Faith!

Muahahaha! finally the conflict is over! now i have 1 less thing to get frustrated and angry bout.. =D thank goodness the conflict is over.. nothing but a sigh of relief after everything.. =D another thing to solve soon.. =D muahahaah!! a busy weekend to come..muahahaha! more details and stories after this weekend.. ciaoz~ YAY!! NO MORE CONFLICT!! =D PRINGLES~

Within ME!

For some time now.. i've been facing a huge confusion and a really hard time struggling to fight against my emotions.. well.. have come to this point where nothing else matters.. i tried hiding my emotions by trying to be happy and occupying my time with all the crap in the world.. but it was just temporary.. when i heard the specific word.. i just broke down.. the mask that i was wearing, scattered into million bits.. revealing the truth to me once again.. making me think.. what am i to do again.. and i just make the decision to isolate myself from the world and community again.. well this is unhealthy.. but i have no control over it.. i can't face entertaining some sad people coz i'm not even stable myself.. this world has ugly truth.. but there is nothing u can do bout it.. facing it is the only way.. so that is what i'm gonna do!

Well..Some feelings are just to hard to put into words.. well i surely know one thing.. Time will pass so will the feelings.. So.. dun hide or try to overcome the emotions by hiding it.. or trying to forget it.. it would never happen..facing the problem and deal with it.. that's something i'm trying to learn myself.. but i know its the way to go.. so let's march on to the battlefield and settle it! No matter of what the outcome is.. i have to let it go.. and move on with life.. i won't let anything hold me down from being myself and being happy.. no way!

Before i end this post.. i really need to thank a really really good fren of mine.. She is there for me.. she understands me.. i really look up to her.. she is just a fantastic,superb, awesome girl.. i dunno how to say this and all.. but i'm really grateful to have her as my friend.. let all the nasty past.. be forgotten.. and let this be a new beginning of this beautiful friendship! F Y I.. she is Kristie Cheng Tse En~! =D Words of wisdom, comfort, love, support, all the good things u have done for me.. i'll remember it all the while! Thank You God for this friend of mine!